Monday, October 27, 2008

One Year Pink Warrior Today

~I'll be taking the Pink day things down, but each year on this day I will have this celebration~

Today every one of my prayers have been answered, on my one year warrior day, more to come
Life is short..live it in wonder
Truths ..XFILES..TRUST NO ONE!! QUESTION EVERYTHING THE LIVES YOU SAVE MAY E YOUR OWN

The truth has emerged..going on my blog today
but NOT all the details.
here are the facts

My dad loved my step mother more than anyone else in his life
My step mom loved her son more than anyone else
Because we love both of the so, we never ??d things
I raised by this woman because my bio mom was deprived of me
my mom came home from work, baby gone (ME) house empty
she lived on the street..wouldn't ask for help till my dad's
family asked her to come stay with them
My mom saw my ONCE after that..my dad married my step mom on July 4
a DAY after there divorce..what wasted lives..I hope PHYLLIS my step mom repents
before she dies
thank you GOD!! for this prayer answered
Hunny Hunk says from only seeing ads on TV, I feel like I'm in a "DAYS OF OUR LIVES" & truly who would believe this?

My step mother has lied about everyone but her son
all her
life
My dad would never call HER on the carpet so we never knew
All our lives we have been decieved about our famly
and today we discovered that my step monster..I am so at peace
with everyone..is The Great Deciever
because someone played back her voice message & we
finally believe our family memebers

all is reavealed all is forgiven and I have lost 53 years of my family
becasuse of this

I continue to pray for every one ..and specifically others on some days

I am ready to GO home to God now
but will stay as long as I can as I love my family and friends so much
Fondly, Deena the Pink Warrior and child of God as we all are





























pink coming




Hunny Hunk wanted to know what we will do when my stepmom dies, he thought we wouldn't go to funeral. All is 4given we will do whatever with a broken heart and much love

54 comments:

  1. Good Morning Deena! I am on the way to work and just wanted to say "Hi" and "hope you have a blessing filled day"! Love, Maridon
    P.S. something I am grateful for: COFFEE!!! (love it!)

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  2. Deena, Congratulations on your one year, I am so proud of you and so blessed to have found you through this blog, I hope you have a wonderful day, you are so loved. Big Hugs Deb

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  3. Hi Deena! You have traveled such a great distance this year. I want to thank you for sharing your thoughts while on the journey. You have made a difference.

    Love you,
    M.A.

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  4. Hey there pink girl!!
    so happy for your one year!
    you are such an inspiration!!
    oxoxoxo,
    jessi

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  5. Hello our "Pink Warrior" Deena! Can't believe it has been a year.. What you have & are going through. You are such a blessing to all of us. Thanks so much for all your posts.
    We sure do love you!!!
    Hugs ~Mary~ :-}

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  6. God Bless you Sweety! One year survivor and warrior!! You did it!!

    I made you a little something in honor of today and would love to send it to you.
    My email is mbrinke1220@gmail.com.

    You will continue to stay in my prayers and in my heart!

    Blessings!

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  7. and the truth shall set us free!!
    Today every one of my prayers
    have been answered.. God has
    set all of us free.
    More coming
    love to ALL of you
    deena

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  8. A happy Pink day Deena, hope you are feeling well today. You seem to have a lot off your shoulders now with your family situation and I really hope you can find peace :)
    Hugs
    Lynn

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  9. I'm wearing pink just for you! you are truley an amazing lady with so much courage to share your experience with all of us, your a warrior, and we all know a warrior or 2 in our life, but your the greatest one I know, I have been so blessed to have found your through Kim's blog site, your title cought my eye and I am so happy I clicked on to your site!! I think about you and my Mom when I see pink ribbons! I pray that God will keep blessing us with you for a VERY LONG TIME!!!! we need more pink angels.
    LOVE TO YOU ALWAYS
    Annette

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  10. Deena,

    Congratulations on one year, my friend. You are a Warrior, for sure.

    Praying for you, my dear friend.
    Blessings,
    Mary

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  11. Deena, It's hard to believe that is has been a year. You and all the Pink Warriers are in my prayers.
    Today I am grateful for finding you through Amy's and Mary's blog--you are an inspiration for my survival and your positive attitude has changed me so much. God has a purpose for bringing people together and I know He sent me to you for that reason.
    As the song goes " The Road is long with many a winding roads". Prayers for you, for a quick recovery. Love and Hugs, Pat

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  12. A year ago my own mother was dying, slowly. I talked with her everyday as I had for more than 3 years. We talked 4-5x a day. I thought I had finally gotten her love, even though she was always bluntly honest that she "did not care for me". Most of my life I tried to love a family who couldn't love themselves or eachother. They have all passed, our mother last. The beginning of this year and through Spring I would take an hour or so to go through my mother's things that had been sent to me...and through my brother's things and my sister's. What I found in all of their possesions were lives spent in overwelming anger, pain, torment and deceit. They had not seen eachother or spoken for years before they died. Each died alone in agony. I allowed myself to read words so hateful about me, the daughter and the little sister. Then came the letter that my father had sent my mother years ago after he had left her and his children, and died shortly after.
    The letter said that he left because he hated me. He had been the only one I thought who loved me. I hadn't even lived at home for 3 years then...my mother asked me to move out when my father left her. I was 15 and my Gram had died, I was alone. My mother left this one letter from my father in a safety deposit box by itself. She saved it to hurt me with all those years...more than 30 yrs. It said "give to Nancy upon my death". When her lawyer handed my husband the letter he said "no child should ever have to read anything like this, and no mother should have saved it". When my father wrote the letter he had been a black-out alcoholic for 50+ years. My family was an abusive family locked into addiction all their lives. I FINALLY saw how God alone rescued me from their self made hells. Even though alone in the world, God protected me. Who loves or doesn't love...that is up to them and between them and God. God will deal with that. What I do, say, feel, how I lead my life, that is left to me and my own soul. I chose and choose the love that Jesus the Christed taught of. That's where the freedom lies, in that example is the key to setting ourselves free. Thank you for sharing your core Deena, as you know, others will find another way of thinking from it. We all have our stories, some more dramatic than others...but all paths back to the LIGHT. So happy first day of being emotionally free! Feels good, I know.
    Nancy/Church/Saints and Haints

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  13. Hi Deena,
    Happy one year! I'm glad that putting your thoughts about family down has given us such a well deserved sense of peace my friend.
    xo

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  14. Dear Deena, What a perfect day to recieve the beautiful autumn journal from you. It's so pretty. Thank you so much, Hugs, Diane

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  15. Congratulations on your Pink Warrior Day. For your inspiration and love and thank you and pray for you to have peace and joy.

    I have a pink blog for you on my other blog photoblog.paintbox.

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  16. Deena my dear, I am honoured to be part of your "pink posse". One year and what a year it has been.

    I am glad that you are finding peace with your family history -- this is important to you at this stage.

    Reading your post today reminds me that you my dear are filled with divine grace ♥

    Loving you much!

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  17. Congratulations you PINK WARRIOR!!
    And I'm glad you expressed your heart today of what you went through. "THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE."
    Have a great day... YOU ARE A CHILD OF THE KING OF THE UNIVERSE!
    WHOOOhOoOO!
    Lea

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  18. Dear Deena.
    Congratulations on your one year as a survivor and pink warrior. I have been so blessed from getting to know you. Stay strong Deena.
    Big hugs,
    Jill.

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  19. So glad your prayers are answered Deena...and I pray you continue to stay strong and in a peaceful state of mind and heart.
    Blessings always,betzie

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  20. It's wonderful to hear about your one year anniversary ~ I'm so glad that I met you during this past month and have been able to read your sweet, encouraging words.

    I'm also glad that you were able to write out your thoughts concerning your family and that you have found some peace with that. I can't even imagine how difficult that must be.

    Thinking of you,

    Angie in OH

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  21. Hi Deena girl, Congratulations on one year of ups and downs with sharing your amazing journey with us. We your prayer warriers are indeed much blessed from knowing you. One year ago today was when I first talked with you and you have enriched my life sister. As someone wiser than I told me "We can change no one but ourselves, and it's none of our business who likes us, but it is our business whom we like". That is kind of deep and requires really thinking about, but I guess the moral of this little story is that you, Deena see good in everyone and for those like the unloveable stepmommie, they will reap what they've sown. Love you Mollye

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  22. One year a strong fighter, you are Deena. Something tells me you always were! Praying for your peace and joy.
    Kathy

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  23. Deena,
    My heart goes out to you...well, more than that, but it's hard to come up with the right words. I have a hard time with my loved ones being in pain(you). I want to make it all better. The only real thing I can do is to pray. When I think about all the times in my life I have felt rejection and hurt from people, I am now at the point where I know He will use it for my good somehow. I don't have the answers...and sometimes I don't have the victory. But I know that Jesus knows exactly how I feel, and only He can put things together the right way.
    Your life story and Church's seem so horrible and unforgiveable. And to read that you both have gotten past it-with God-is a true testimony to God's power. Look to Him. For some reason I just feel like crying like a baby. I have grown to love you as a dear friend, and I just hate having you hurt.
    ~Debra

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  24. Congratulations on one year darling Deena! Your heart is now light and free, what a blessing! You are in my thoughts and prayers, much love always, Suzanne:)

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  25. ONE LONG YEAR! I know you are marking it as a landmark year of prayer. I am so thankful to have found my way to your blog, however I did???, a year ago and think of you and pray for you everyday. I am so sorry that so much family drama has had to happen for you while you deal with "other" things. But, right always finds a way and you have so much integrity and character that you were blessed in spite of the hand you were dealt with your childhood sorrows. Hope it gets better for you. A friend told me one time a truth...."it doesn't matter what people think, it only matters what God thinks."

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  26. Deena, I am glad that you could write on your post what has been bothering you, I hope it gives you peace. We all thank you for taking us with you on your journey this last year and know please how much we all care and love you. You are in my prayers and God be with you my dear. Hugs.....Sharon K

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  27. Deena, what a wonderful day for you. I am so sorry for the hurt you must have carried all your life. I'm glad that you have recieved a healing! Sometimes God heals us in ways we could never expect. You have many, many SISTERS who love you!!!!!!!

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  28. It is so important for the truth to come out. Lies cause so much pain...

    StepMonster indeed. Her whole life has been a fraud, and she has to live with it.

    You have traveled far this year, dear Deena... There is a peace that comes with being ready to go home to God.

    Selfishly, I want you here, and will miss you when you go, but when your angel work is complete, I know you will go home...

    Prayers and blessings and *light* to those that need them and want them and should have them...

    Honesty would change the face of the world were people to be honest with themselves and with others...

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  29. Deena

    You do have many sisters who care about you.

    Rest a while, we all send you our good thoughts and wishes.

    Sarah.

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  30. Deena- you are an inspiration to me and I feel blessed to know you through this blog.

    God bless you, and your family.

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  31. Deena...I continue to pray for you that that the Lord will give you peace and assurance as you walk this journey. Congratulations on one year! Each moment is a blessing isn't it!

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  32. I am so happy for your year! Another year of loving and being loved, and for me to "meet" you.

    I am sorry about your parents. I have been betrayed too, and it hurts so deeply. I pray these hurts heal, that God restores the years that have been taken, and makes beauty from ashes. xoxo

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  33. Deena.. The Truth does set of free indeed, but can also be a painful process. May God's LOVE continue to support you during this time as you process this information as Im sure it was a shock to you emotionally.

    You have and are a continue inspiration to me, such a Blessing, as you show forgivness to those who were deceitful and hurtful to your mother.
    Love to you sweet Deena!
    Jackie (dove2mist)

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  34. Dearest Deena, absolutely God smiles each and every time He looks down on your beautiful face...

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  35. Deena,Is people like you that gives inspiration to all of us.
    I have been so blessed to have found your blog site by chanse.
    Is people like you that gives inspiration to all of us.
    I have been so blessed to have found your blog site.
    I'm praying for God keep giving you strenght and peace as you go on through this ordeal.
    Congratulation on your one year!
    God Bless you, Virginia

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  36. Deena,

    Congratulations on your one year! You are such an inspiration.

    So sorry to hear about a lifetime of pain. What freedom comes when the truth is revealed.I pray your family can now heal.

    Much love to you!
    Jan

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  37. God Loves you so much more than any mortal person could ever. Aren't we so grateful for those Large Loving arms that we can crawl up inside and know that there will never be any hurt there ? He alone gives us all we need. Sending you a BIG hug today, My Dear Friend. :)

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  38. Deena, we will be here every year to celebrate with you. Hugs

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  39. Hello Sweet Deena ~ A BIG Congratulations to you, PINK WARRIOR. I love you and will continue to pray that our Father holds you and lifts you through this and all things. He loves you so.
    oxoxox

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  40. Hi Deena, Congratulations on your one year anniversary. My prayers are with you. I just recently came upon your blog and I read so much about your struggle. I must say you are brave and strong and God is looking after you and giving you this strength to keep going. Thanks for stopping by my blog. I put the BC Awareness button on there. I am a survivor , too, 5 1/2 years, and this is very important to me, also. Take care & blessings to you.

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  41. Raise up your head Dear Deena you have been blessed instead of left alone.
    You touch so many with your peace and love and I see angel wings sent from above.
    The pain we live in life is gone from us in death. This we know.
    I can never understand the hurt parents inflick upon the hearts of ones so young.
    You are a treasure to us and to your family.
    I send my hugs and blessings and most of all my Love.


    ( sometimes when i get to talking about my childhood it is really hard to get threw it...so many questions as to why all the hurt.And I promised my self long ago I would never be that way to my kids. I have not broken that promise.)

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  42. And Congrats !! You are a warrior!!

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  43. Dear Deena,

    Congratulations on your one-year milestone! You have given so many hope and courage with your story.
    You have lifted all of us up with your Pink Angel wings. I know that God smiles because of you. And I smile when I think of you too. Blessings to you!!!!

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  44. Sending my love and friendship on this special day to you. Wish I was closer so I could drop by for tea and hugs.

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  45. aH, Sweet Deena...my computer was down yesterday and part of the night...I wore pink yesterday for YOU !
    Congratulations on your 1 year. Oh, so much you have gone thru....
    I am glad your family hurt is healing.
    love, bj

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  46. aH, Sweet Deena...my computer was down yesterday and part of the night...I wore pink yesterday for YOU !
    Congratulations on your 1 year. Oh, so much you have gone thru....
    I am glad your family hurt is healing.
    love, bj

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  47. So happy on your one year celebration! You have fought this battle bravely and with faith - and now your One Year has passed! Thanking God for being near to you and blessing you in spite of your problems and giving you peace.

    As you enter this new year, enjoy your beautiful singing woods and all of us who have grown to love you.

    Hugs to you!
    Ruthie

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  48. Deena,

    Congratulations on your one year.

    I am visualizing the light shining on you and giving you comfort and peace.

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  49. your journey has been long and hard my dear friend....but you truly are a warrior and i embrace you today and celebrate your heart and the love you exude......sorry i wasn't "here" yesterday, but we were returning from our beach vacation!
    hugs and love,
    kimberly

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  50. Oh dear Deena, I just read your note about family...I am heartbroken for you. You just lost your dad, and now this...I am so sorry for you in the family of your childhood...but so glad you had your own sweet husband and children for yourself...what can we say to the monsters from our pasts? I read Nancy/Church's post and was heartbroken for her as well. She is so right that it is Christ alone who saves, who heals, rescues, repairs, makes whole... God bless you Deena. Hugs and more hugs. Maridon

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  51. Pink Warrior Indeed!!!

    Oh, Deena... such a bittersweet post today.

    I am happy for you that the truth has been revealed. This too, is true.... the greatest growth often come from the deepest cuts...

    I have also been terribly betrayed by those I gave my whole heart to. Forgiving is so healing. But that hurt still remains. When I get to feeling all the raw emotion, I think of our precious Jesus. He knows betrayal. He knows denial. He knows abandonment. He knows paying the price for someone else's sins.

    When our hearts are broken... our bodies too... we can go to Him and He will pour out such pure love from His Sacred Heart.

    He has poured that love out through you once again today, Deena. You are a gift.

    We can never know all the answers, but I do not believe one moment in life is wasted if we offer it all to the Lord. He knows the purposes of all things, even if we cannot imagine them. ALL things work for the good for those who love Him. Your pain is already helping others to heal.

    Thank you, Deena.

    YOU ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOO LOVED!!!

    Hugs & Prayers... *Linda*

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  52. Deena, I am so happy for you, that you have found peace, joy and truth in your life. I am thankful you are ready to meet your God. What a wonderful blessing that will be to close your eyes, go to sleep, and open them to Heaven.

    My sister heard last week that she has three to six months to live...but maybe only two, the Doctor is only guessing. The cancer is growing fast, even Chemo isn't slowing it down. I am having a hard time accepting it. It helps me to read your blog and feel the peace you have found.

    love, loretta

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  53. My thoughts and prayers are with you! God Bless you! You wonderful strong woman YOU!

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