WHOOOCOOKSFORYOU???

The Great Barred Owl came to visit

today. His hoot sounds like who cooks for you

If you hoot back he will hoot at you.

It's time for the babies..

so perhaps he's looking for a home.

I am so grateful I got some decent photos to share.

I love owls..bats....and so many more animals

Mr Barred didn't seem to care if I was around

he even listened when I talked to him

God sent me this joy today

Prayers Please

My little deer friend, she looked when I opened the porch door.

I know I've been silent for a bit.  After I finished the Whole Brain Radiation, things just got

icky. I was so scattered for so long, and then IT set in. The nausea, the not being able to eat. The NOT SO GOOD attitude.  The sleeping all day and night.  

Here it is two months later and I'm not better. 

I've lost 20 lbs since November, I go out for dr appts and that's it. Rich did all the Christmas shopping that got done .. ALL OF IT.  

I did go to the docs and go again next week. I had another Brain MRI last week and it showed NO new tumors and the ones that are there are smaller.  Great news!!

We are trying to get the nausea under control. It is much better, but food..YUCK..I don't like anything.  I do eat something each day..but I can't eat much.   

The worst part, I am NOT all happy ..not mad or angry..just feel like I've lost my lust for life.  My dear hubby has been so good about it.  He lets me do what I want, doesn't push, except to make me eat.  

I am not trying to starve myself..I want to eat. 

SO..I am asking for prayers for ME..That this will get better..I can't keep losing weight..and that

my joyous attitude will return.  I want to be positive like I was before. 

I don't talk on the phone ..cuz I just have not much to say..I  WISH I knew someone like ME..who has gone through all of this and could share with me ..but alas..I know

no one....If you know of someone who has stage 4 breast cancer, with brain mets ..and radiation

would you ask them if they'd share their experience??

I'm crying now..maybe this post did ME some good.

Love to you all

Deena

Saturday ~Happy Birthday ~An Award& FLEA MARKET FRIDAY A DAY LATE

HEY aLL you BIRTHDAY babes

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Happy Birthday to my friends who have birthdays today. Today is God's gift!!

My step mom is still near death, I've been praying for her to find peace.

I am doing better everyday. Cole ( oldest daughters oldest son) spent the night las night

what a joy that is.

Please sign up for the Christmas Delights 

here!!!

Someone  will win a Christmas Journal made by none other than ME..teehee

I received this lovely award from Nancy of Fete Fleur , tis lovely, please all my friends & pink friends, grab it and spread the joy!!!

thank you Nancy dear.

Be sure to visit Nancy's hubby's blog tis delightful

I got up early feeling nauseous but this too will pass. Yesterday was the first day since Oct. 20th that I was not ill. 

My surgery doesn't hurt..just a bit of discomfort..not even taking pain meds.

Rich & I watched, Expelled, No Intelligence Required

VERY GOOD, and so many questions..

Here's mine..If an intellegent being ( OUR GOD) did not design us..ponder this..

why do each of us since Adam & Eve have unique fingerprints??? Unique DNA & why is every snow drop totally different??

We have evolved ...to adapt to our surroundings..but certainly not from bubbling mud

OMG

I laughed at some of the SCIENTISTS

..

Rich said when he studied Darwinism in college..he went to ASU...the

more he studied the more he realized it was BS..

Love in Him.Rejoice in the day He made for us

Massage today, no other plans except rest

Be Sure to Check out my Flea Market Friday here

& all the other sellers here

JOYS

new clothes from B Moss

a great day

a few snow flurries

watch the sun rise, the set

my fingerprints are unique

each of YOU

We don't live in Ohio..eeek..it should be IL tried to change, cannot figure it out..too tired

As I See It

Tis me , Deena , today 10/5/2008
Here I am in February of 2008, before chemo, all I'd had was a mastectomy

The view from my desk , I love the Autumn

My friend Sherry of Blair Creek Cabin & Gathering Hope is having a blog giveaway..
RUN over there & sign up..

Isn't this box awesome???
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and join my Pink October please
HERE
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the Autumn Open House
HERE
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fondly, deena


ABOUT ME

the radiation is making me SO scattered, the worst day so far for the thinking

I am truly happy

my hair is starting to stick to my pillow case, not my head

I addressed envelopes to send out the Hollyhock seeds

my daughter and grandsons plan on moving out next week

my eyesight is bad

I am not driving

JOYS

My BFF, Marcia is coming over & we are going out for a drive

Pat of Winding Vine Designs sent me a sweet wool handmade acorn

I am able to take pictures & use my PC

the soft feel & fresh smell of newly laundered towels

Autumn Sun

a lovely home to keep me cozy

knowing it doesn't matter that I can't run the vacuum

my friend Church , calls me often

Trust the Journey

Not to worry my dear friends. ..I am here and well

I have only 5 radiation treatments left

so next Tuesday will be my LAST !!

After that..just watching and testing me

(every two months for the brain, every three

months for the heart and every three weeks for 

blood tests)

and the continuing Herceptin & Zometa

every three weeks.

I lost my spirit for a bit, too tired to do anything

or even care about doing stuff. I realized then, I just 

have to trust my journey.

I have gotten some sweet gifts the past 2 weeks also

bringing me much joy. My friend Sally ..made a "Little Book of Joys"

as I was finding it hard to find some.  I don't know why..I am not

depressed ..just tired.  This too has passed.

I have a list of things to help  a friend through her journey

Call to chat

Stop by to do laundry

Take her a milk shake

Cook a meal for her & the family

Get manicures & pedicures together

Wash her car

Add her to prayer chains

Ice cream sundaes are always fun

Shampoo her hair

 Please Share your joys with me

& art you've been working on

Taking a Break

to contemplate life and health and my path on this journey. Don't worry,I'm fine, but I need to find joy. I will be getting closer to God & my purpose in Him.

Find the joy & snatch it up &

Keep feeding me whimsy PLEASE!! love..Deena * I AM blessed*

Happy Valentine's Day

Here's my gift to all of you

Please take any of these graphics

&

use them, they are all copyright free,

Happy Valentine's Day,

tis a day to show love to all.

with loves' greeting, Deena

My Joys today

sleeping until the sun was up,

eating a chocolate covered strawberry for breakfast,

birds at the feeders,

sharing life with friends,

watching "Becoming Jane" today

Please share some joys with us!!

Do you know what today is, It's our Anniversary

Turn off my player on the right further down & play this video.

Today Rich &  I  celebrate 15 years of marriage.

Our girls taped this song, & would make us breakfast

& serve it in bed with this song PLAYING.

Oh they were SWEET.

I'll be back with more ..of our story & pictures 

maybe this weekend.

Till then I'll be watching movies & soaking up

some sun through the window.

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Celebrate Life, Share your Joy of the Day with us.

My joys today

  a loving husband,

snow that looked like mica in the sun this morning,

dark chocolate Dove Promises,

a cold pepsi,

soft pillows,

&

please visit

 the whimsy on my Tattered BLOG

for more joy~~

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Kathyann from Meg's Mum's Muffins

thank you.  If you're visiting my blog..you're my friend

please take these & pass them on!!

&

Sweet Mary of Mary's Writing Nook

gave me this 

She thinks I create pretties!!

I'm passing it on to

Sherry of Esprit*D'Art

& 

Angie of QuillySillys

&

Pinkie Denise of Pink Pomegranate

for making pretties  for all of us to enjoy.

PS..My oncologist said Thursday , Friday and 

Saturday will be my "bottom out" days.

I just got the biggest waive of exhaustion, so

if I don't post for a few days, just know

I'm resting .  I'll be back..and for now

Rich will take GOOD care of me.

lovingly, Deena

Can the first day of February be the first day of Chemo??

Share your Easter Bonnet pictures with me

on My Fantasy Blog

I even added a Mr Linkie..and ..I'll be adding a clickable icon for your BLOG later today..spread the Fantasy.

 I slept great..with the aid of Ambien, up bright eyed

& bushy tailed at 5:15 AM.  

Taking meds, drinking water, eating, got my goodie bag packed.

Rich is going to snow blow the drive..and hopefully the 

snow plow will be through again in a bit.

We got about 6 inches or more..the schools are all closed.

I feel good about today..and I know I'll at LEAST get the

injection to start my bones hardening.

I want to THANK Dolly for my Valentine Swap box,  Mollye for

my KING CAKE from Louisianne to celebrate Mardi Gras

Dana's friend Cyndi for the lotion for when Radiation begins.

Pictures will be coming !!

I did get OUR WEBSITE updated last night...that 

is something I love to do..take a peek

I'll let you know the skinny as soon as I can today.

Blood Tests are at 8:15 AM, then see my oncologist, Diane Prager, then

the plan for the day!!

thank you everyone..you are awesome

and my angel wings!!!

Deena

PS, the snow plow is here!!

Yippee we'll be able to head out, no problem

thank you Jesus!!

This came this AM from Marcella..thank you dear!!

PSS

Updated my surgery pics here . LOOK at YOUR discretion

it's NOT "Girls Gone Wild" or "Spring Break"

The pics from Dec. and this Monday past.