A bit of this ..a bit of that

My BFF Marcia, her husband,  Rhea sent this to me, 

it's was labeled 

GOD SMILES!!!

I love nature..God is there, if you look, you KNOW 

He IS..

I'm getting ready to make breakfast for supper. I love breakfast food sometimes

in the evenings.  The boys..Rich and his dad, are having chilli and egg buritos.

I am having some oatmeal with cranberries..and toast.

My breast is hurting all the time the last few days..and the lump feels

bigger.  I can see swelling under my arms where the nodes are. It

is scaring me. I'm going to call Dr Denise, but I am sure

there is nothing to do or worry more about.  In two weeks, at 

this time of day.. 5PM..I should be all down with surgery.

I told Rich NOT to leave me that day, cuz when I wake up, he

will be the one to tell me how many nodes had to go.   He's 

going to stay the night with me that night at the hospital too.

In the days ahead, I plan to stay BUSY and reduce stress as much

as I can.  

Rich has plans to move his dad ..just him and his personals...on the

weekend before my surgery.  The place he is going will keep him

on a month to month lease for 4 months.  This is a huge burden

lifted , it will help us to concentrate on only me.  His dad isn't

ill, just not able to do some things that make it impossible

for him to live alone.

I cried tonight cuz I am scared , and Rich says he is too. Of course

he is handling MY cancer, better than I could handle him with cancer.

This is the first time, I got this dread feeling that I may not

make it ..I'll pray for this feeling to pass.  I don't need any MORE stress.

Good news today from my BFF Marcia..all the tests are back from her

surgery and ALL clear..Praise GOD!!  I need her to love me for 

lots of centuries.  

 I need some EXTRA prayers please.

fondly, Deena