I learned some things, An Awesome Documentary

Last night, on Dish Network, documentary channel, was 

great documentary called "Breast Cancer Diaries" 

The picture above is Ann with her youngest.. her son

was about 4 and such a sweet young man.

It was about Ann Murray Paige & her journey with

breast cancer. She was 38 when diagnosed and she two little babes.

She found her lump with a self exam. I found her journey

to be frightening, enlightening and very educating for me.

I am so glad I have grown children.  It was so hard on

her babes to go without their mom for so long.

I especially learned about the chemotherapy process..and what

it entails. Even though I had an idea..I didn't know exactly how

it was administered.

The good thing..after about a year, Ann was happy, healthy and 

beautiful again.  Her hair DID grow back with a bit of curl. She

opted to have BOTH breasts removed, even though only one 

had the cancer..and she has NO reconstruction.  From watching

her story, I feel the only option to her was implants, which I 

would not do either.  She was courageous, had a loving supporting

family..and they all went to Boston to stay with her parents , so

there was help with the children.  

WELL!!! of course last night, I dreamed I was doing chemo

& I tell ya, tis what scares me most.  They were most AWFUL dreams. 

Why must the nights by so SCAREY??

 My husband thinks the 

surgery is when I'll need him most, but from Ann's story, the

chemo is what kicks your butt!  She had 8 of them.. 2 weeks apart

and just when she felt decent after each dose, it was time

for another.  Her hair was gone after the 2nd treatment.

She wore hats & a wig outside, but not at home.  

I am thankful she shared her story..for me and for everyone

who may be touched by this.  She said for a year, she felt 

her life was about her being a cancer patient..not a woman, mom, wife, daughter, sister or 

friend..   She DID find peace, health..and she said ..now she takes time

out to just go outside and look at what flowers bloom.  She breaks silly

rules and spends as much time as possible with her family.  She even left her

job as a Special Reporter for a Public TV station AFTER she got well.

Here's an interview with her..she was even cute BALD

I also realize HOW hard this will be on my family & friends..especially my

dear hubby, but I look forward to the OTHER side of this journey and

the health that awaits me.

God will see us through this and whatever the outcome..it will be His will

and I will be joyous.

fondly, Deena