I awoke early today, the sun is shining, the snow is melting, the birds are
singing and I got the mail without a coat.YES, Spring IS coming.
I have a great atittude & feel good FINALLY. I think my honey hunk has
been quite concerned about my frame of mind. He'll be glad to see
my bright face again today. I'm no Super Woman, but I am most always happy.
I need to shake this feeling that I'm waiting to start my life again
without cancer. I must accept..I may have to live my life WITH cancer and just let God handle it. I have been hovering in the
"soon I'll be well" state for too long. I have much to do in this life yet.
I didn't go anywhere last week until Sunday when my BFF Marcia
came to get me. We had lunch at Panera's and then checked
out a new store here from the window. Closed on Sundays, we
knew that in advance.
Marcia & I came back to my house for iced tea, cookies & some chocolate.
I talked a lot, she listened, then she talked & I listened. It is
great to have her home. She'll be gone for a week to Arizona soon
but I can handle ONE week.
Thank you Lord for all the blessings you have given me.
My totally wonderful grown children, my "rockin" grandsons, a one in a million
awesome husband, the bestest BFF ever, our lovely home in the Singing Woods
Lord thanks for cancer as it has made me kinder and gentler & brought
many great friends to me.
it is well with my soul
I think you're right, but it takes a lot of sense and a lot of power too, to see it this way. I admire you and I have enjoyed this post so much, thank you! Your a wise wise girl!
ReplyDeletewhat an amazing post! so very true, we cannot and must not put our lives on hold, whether we are waiting for good health, a better job, more money, whatever, waiting is just that, waiting! Go out and enjoy dear one, spring is coming soon!
ReplyDeleteDeena, cancer has brought you to me as a great friend and advisor. I got your package yesterday and I still can't believe your generosity. I cried good tears for a long time!
ReplyDeleteI am still waiting to start my new life too. I guess it's only natural to want things to be the way they were. We must accept the fact that they never may be. I've only been dealing with cancer for six months, so I can't imagine what you must be going through. Nobody said it would be easy....but noone said it'd be this hard.
love to you,
xo,
Sheri
Deena, I have been following your blog for a long time but don't think I have ever commented. I love your thankful spirit and your honesty about your struggles. Your words in this post truly move my heart. I know it must be so hard to get to a place of acceptance concerning cancer; of letting go of what has been and of embracing what is. One of my sisters recently finished treatment for breast cancer. She was diagnosed at Stage 1, so we pray all is now well. My best friend has ALS and has lost all use of her legs and will soon lose the use of her arms as well. I am helping with her caregiving. She has such a beautiful spirit and has been such an inspiration to others. Her life has touched so many other lives. You will never know, this side of Heaven, how many lives you are touching through your gentle spirit. Tender thoughts from my heart to yours .... Frances
ReplyDeleteDear Deena, What a lovely post, the mental state always makes such a difference, doesn't it. But you sound wonderful and your joy is infectious. Have a beautiful day. Diane
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful post and it does my heart good to hear these words from you..... God cannot change our minds but HE can change our hearts, We cannot change our hearts but we can change our minds........ So when we change our minds HE will change our hearts!
ReplyDeleteHow true this is for you..... Looking toward your life with joy and anticipation for what tomorrow holds will open the flood gates of heaven and HE will give you great joy in your heart....... What a wonderful God we serve..... HE give us joy when the world tells us to grieve.......
I hope to be back to blogging soon.. I miss my friends!
For as he thinketh in his heart, so [is] he: Proverbs 23:7
I am so glad that you are feeling this peace & calm in your life. Love ya
ReplyDeleteDeena...this post made me smile and rejoice! You are in a good place now....at peace with your life and your God. Blessings to you my friend!
ReplyDeleteLove, Karen
Deena, you have reached a perfect place.
ReplyDeleteYour post is wonderful. And so true. We can't live for what might happen....either good or bad ... just live for the moment and trust our lives to our loving and caring God. And you have become a friend to me during your dealing with cancer - so I'm thankful I found you in this wonderful world of blogging.
ReplyDeleteWhat a tremendous spirit you have and you have no idea just how much encouragement you give to me.....with your strength, courage, acceptance and such overwhelming reasons to live for the moment and not to fear what could or might happen. I have lived in this fear way too long and your words have given me the push to forge ahead with more strength and courage and not be so afraid of 'what might happen' or 'when the next shoe will fall'. Thank you for helping complete strangers. God bless and may angels keep lifting you..........sue black
ReplyDeleteDeena...not feeling well today myself...but I "get" your post. I, along with my Lord's help, am living day by day...trying not to bring tomorrow's grief on today.. catch the word trying!!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your good days Deena!!
You lift the spirits of many, you are remarkable!
ReplyDeleteSo happy to hear you are in good spirits and that you have a good support system.
ReplyDeleteDeena you are an amazing woman
ReplyDeleteAlison
We all have the same gift, today, this one day. We can make what we want of it. Some days are harder than others and we fight to get through them. Then tomorrow comes - which may be a day like the one you describe Deena - and we make the very best of it, grabbing it loving it.........just in case.
ReplyDeleteYou have joined our group now. We each fought the battle because we craved another day - we have so much still to do, to enjoy, to love. The cancer may be with us always but it also keeps us going, fighting for each new day, one at a time.
Be joyful Deena - you are in our thoughts as always.
Deena
ReplyDeleteYou are a bright star for all of us in blog land. Thanks for sharing. Peace
In 2004 I came across an article. When reading your blog for March 3rd it reminded me of you. Your beautiful thoughts and wisdom. God Bless Paulette
ReplyDeleteToday, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this the the best day of my life ever!
There were times when I wondered if I would make it today; but I did! And because I did I'm going to celebrate.
Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbeleivable life I have had so far. The accomplishments the many blessings and yes even the hardships, because they have served to make me stronger.
I will go through this day with my head held high and a happy heart. I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts, the morning dew, the sun, the clouds and the trees, the flowers and the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.
Today I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile, I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone who seems down. I'll tell a child how special he or she is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for him or her and how much he or she means to me.
Today is the day I quit worrying what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful thing God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his divine plan ensures everything will bejust fine. And tonight before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures. As the day end's and I lay my head down on my pillow I will thank the almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectations because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life ever.
Written by a woman named Jill.
You give so many of us strngth!! this past weekend we went to a benefit of a friend with bone cancer and lythphoma..It was good to see so many people. the line was never empty. i thought of all you been thru and how beautiful you are. Never forget that!!
ReplyDeleteHI Deena~
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking about you~ GLAD your spirit is feeling better~ Our mind can do so much more than we know, in terms of healing ourselves. Do you have any little wee things poking their heads up out of hte ground yet? We are over a foot deep in M*U*D* here, so cold everything is still sleeping, but soon, I feel spring is on its way! The sun has that brighter, fresher clear shine to it now, and I am walking checking for little buds and such now each day on my way to the chickens. Be strong & enjoy each and EVERY day~ xoxoxoxo rachael
I love your attitude. I love your heart. I love YOU.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
Kat
Your outlook on life .... wow... Whenever I feel down or in a "mood" I always seems to gravitate here .... because somehow I know ... that the words you say ... will bring me out of that "slump" and back into the real world...
ReplyDeleteWe .....are the ones.... who are blessed.... we have you...
LOTS AND LOTS OF HUGS
JO
A lovely post. You are my inspiration-just to be a better me.
ReplyDeleteLove, Debra
You are such a blessing and an inspiration to so many. Keeping you in my prayers and in my heart.
ReplyDeletetry and lift those spirits ... I know how difficult that may be. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteDeena,
ReplyDeleteI so enjoyed reading this. I am thankful right along with you!! I feel that you have a great perspective...I know this has been a hard journey because I've watched you nearly from the beginning.
You just keep hanging in there!
Be blessed, Joyce
Dear Deena: That was a beautiful post. You are a strong, beautiful women and you are so lucky to have such great friends AND a wonderful, loving husband and family.
ReplyDeletexxoo
Deborah
"I'm no Super Woman, but I am most always happy." What a great way to see life. I'm thankful that I "met" you through your blog. Keep smiling - you're an inspiration to us! I hope you remember that, even a little bit, every day! :)
ReplyDeleteYou are, indeed, a dear person and I'm honored to be able to call you My Friend. I'm loving this new outlook. Now, if everyone could catch it, cancer or no, the world would be a better place. Love you, Sally
ReplyDeleteHello Deena,
ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog for a very long time. God had his hand in it when I ran across your blog shortly after my cancer diagnosis. You blog always lifts me up and keeps me going. What a special, special person you are. I was diagnosed with stage IV cancer in May of 2006. At the time of my diagnosis my son was 16 and daughter 13. Since that time I have watched my son graduate high school and God has allowed me to see my daughter drive. Your post hit the spot today. I feel like I am just stopped on the runway waiting for takeoff. I also say when I get well I am going to do this. When I get well I am going to do that. Well, It will be three years in May so, i better start doing those things now. I still believe and hope for a healing for you and I. I will still continue to pray for you. Thanks for your posts they help me. I only know you by the words that you post. You are truly a beautiful person inside and out. I will contine to pray for you.
Your post today is exactly how I am feeling. My goal now is to see my precious daugther graduate. Everyday is special sharing it with the love of my life. I long to hear the air traffic control lead me into the skies of healthy living but I also am thankful to be here on this earth living daily with cancer waiting my turn to soar into the world of healthy living.
love,
Shelli