Monday, November 26, 2007

My Fasting is Over


I'm back in "our" bedroom & my praying and fasting are over.
Hubby and I talked openly last night..and he has 
agreed it would be best for his dad to have other care
while I heal . He has sought out some places and 
talked with his dad about it.  We all agree.  Of course
now his dad wants to move to a villa in Florida, but
he is NOT able to live alone.
I am so relieved , I feel it will be best for ALL of us
and it is just for a bit.  
My heart has been hurting ..I do love my hubby
and I told him last night, I dont' want our
marriage ruined..cuz when we are good it is 
wonderful..
He said he feels like he's failed when his wife is
so unhappy.. 
I am anxious, scared and I try to focus on EVERYTHING
but the cancer and the upcoming journey. The house is
decorated except the tree and the ribbons on the street lamps.
I addressed Christmas cards today, worked on updating
The Primitive Gathering, read and re-read my post op instructions,
made a list of things I need to get before the surgery..and now
I have to start on Christmas shopping, from my PC I hope!!!
Nicole, my oldest daughter is coming tomorrow, Tuesday, to cut my
hair, and we may go out to get some camisoles made for
women who have had breast surgery...with pockets to
carry my drains around in.. teehee..anything to make it fun.
On Thanksgiving, only my youngest daughter came over..and
we girls sat in the dining room to eat..Rich and his dad sat in the
kitchen to eat.. I made lots of food, turkey, gravy, rolls, sweet potato casserole,
deviled eggs, stuffing, pumpkin pie..I had more to make
but when I found out my two oldest wouldn't be coming, I decided we
had plenty to eat. I had hoped for a full house, but I know my kids
can only go so many places and the boys get tired too.
It was good to have Mercedes home, I miss her so much, but she's
grown and doing QUITE well on her own.

I hardly slept last night, I don't know why..but I did take a nap today..and I
plan to go to bed early tonight..I'm reading a sweet book by
Debbie Mac Comber called "Christmas Wishes"
I love her light love stories at Christmas 
thank you all for your prayers, friendship, encouragement and love
it means so much..Deena

11 comments:

  1. Deena,

    Praise God! I have been praying for you and your family. It's great that you and your husband talked and got everything out in the open. Lines of communication need to be open.

    I'm glad also that his father is going to be leaving for a while until you can heal. You have to take care of you first right now.

    I pray that God's angels will wrap you in the comfort of their wings and that you will have a peaceful sleep tonight.

    Love you, my friend. Keep your eyes on Him!

    Blessings,
    Mary

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  2. I'm glad that things are looking better Deena. Talking openly helps and reaching mutual decisions is excellent. Sleep tight!!

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  3. Glad things are looking up!

    I'd love to hear how your fasting went overall, if you thought it was a good thing or not.

    And I love your ideas for looking at the positives with surgery-that's the way I've always been too! When I lost my hair the 3rd time, a friend and I went and bought fabric that I picked out. She loved sewing so she made me lots of bandanas! So fun. It's the little things that really help :). I, too, cut my hair short before it fell out all 3 times.

    Rachel

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  4. You are on my heart and in my prayers. I'm praising God that things are resolved for you now.

    I also think new boundaries should be set when and if Dad comes back. You matter a great deal and your opinion is just as valid.

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  6. You are on my heart and in my prayers. I'm praising God that things are resolved for you now.

    I also think new boundaries should be set when and if Dad comes back. You matter a great deal and your opinion is just as valid.

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  9. Deena,
    I have been praying that God would help your hubby with his confusion during this trying time...

    he has his dad who needs him on one side and his wife who needs him in a very special way now on the other side... and he thinks he has to pick and choose... when in fact, when you make the decision together with God as to how to handle both situations...things will work together for good!!
    when I have been in my valleys is when I found God to be the closest to me...and I pray the same for you
    blessings and Be Encouraged.....
    with love,
    Mimi

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  10. Good News! I'm so glad your hubby has agreed to this. You've had so many praying for you!
    hugs
    Lennea

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  11. I thought of you when I put my little reindeer out from our secret Santa swap from last year:o)..I am so glad you will be able to just focus on being well and nothing else...God Bless you!!

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